My First Post
Yippeee!!!
Finally after mulling about it for like centuries, I have my own blog now. I am so excited! So what should I write in it? Hmmm... it should be something interesting that will attract readers.
Or not! I mean all I really want is a place to ramble on and on and hope that someone is listening. Yeah yeah I mean reading.
This brings me back to the same question... what should I write here today considering the fact that I already have written some confused thoughts. Maybe I can write what is bothering me today.
That DOES seem to be a good idea. Well today I am plagued by guilt that has been building over the past few months. The guilt that comes because of not giving my best to my work. Ohkay... make it the guilt that comes for slowly drifting towards the worst productive person at work.
Darn that was hard to say... er... I mean write. What should I do? I mean besides actually doing the work. Ha ha... very funny... or NOT. There is this gnawing feeling at the pit of my stomach. Everytime the phone rings I feel as if someone is going to shout at me. Maybe threaten to fire me or something. Yet everyone is soo nice and understanding. Yes I know my reputation and previous hard work is paying off, but I can't just sit on my laurels. My current projects are interesting and something I wanted to learn about.
So what happened you might ask me. Actually, I don't know. Maybe it was the lost promotion. The anger at others getting promoted or no challenges at work. Or maybe the lost vacation (this one is totally my fault actually). Whatever it is I need to move on.
Hey maybe I need a goal. Waaah! Disgusting... I can't think of one. Patience girl... patience. Grrr that is not one of my best virtues. Okay maybe I can concentrate on finalizing one document by 4 PM and reviewing one week of another.
Nooooo not another guilt pang. Boo hoo. This is not working. I feel that I wont succeed. Well at least I can finalize the one document. The rest can be the icing on a very soggy cake.
Hmmm... I'm going to try. Ciao.
Finally after mulling about it for like centuries, I have my own blog now. I am so excited! So what should I write in it? Hmmm... it should be something interesting that will attract readers.
Or not! I mean all I really want is a place to ramble on and on and hope that someone is listening. Yeah yeah I mean reading.
This brings me back to the same question... what should I write here today considering the fact that I already have written some confused thoughts. Maybe I can write what is bothering me today.
That DOES seem to be a good idea. Well today I am plagued by guilt that has been building over the past few months. The guilt that comes because of not giving my best to my work. Ohkay... make it the guilt that comes for slowly drifting towards the worst productive person at work.
Darn that was hard to say... er... I mean write. What should I do? I mean besides actually doing the work. Ha ha... very funny... or NOT. There is this gnawing feeling at the pit of my stomach. Everytime the phone rings I feel as if someone is going to shout at me. Maybe threaten to fire me or something. Yet everyone is soo nice and understanding. Yes I know my reputation and previous hard work is paying off, but I can't just sit on my laurels. My current projects are interesting and something I wanted to learn about.
So what happened you might ask me. Actually, I don't know. Maybe it was the lost promotion. The anger at others getting promoted or no challenges at work. Or maybe the lost vacation (this one is totally my fault actually). Whatever it is I need to move on.
Hey maybe I need a goal. Waaah! Disgusting... I can't think of one. Patience girl... patience. Grrr that is not one of my best virtues. Okay maybe I can concentrate on finalizing one document by 4 PM and reviewing one week of another.
Nooooo not another guilt pang. Boo hoo. This is not working. I feel that I wont succeed. Well at least I can finalize the one document. The rest can be the icing on a very soggy cake.
Hmmm... I'm going to try. Ciao.
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