My Profile

Today I pulled my head up from the sand and wrote my profile... I'm also putting it here. Tell me if someone likes it!

Ok so here goes nothing!

Freshly graduated from IGNOU after completing my BA majors in Economics, I joined NIIT as a technical writer. There I began my journey into the world of writing and instructional design. I began my career with NETg – the biggest project with NIIT at that time. With that project, I learned useful skills, such as flow, transition, chunking, visualization, and even construction. I also learned what the reviewers wanted to see in a course and was introduced to the concept of audience analysis. Slowly and steadily I learned to design and write courses ranging from CBTs to blended learning projects.

With time, I moved on and was assigned more responsibilities. Beginning with training people in technology and construction, I went on to mentor people and manage teams. I also learned to work and interact with external entities like Subject Matter Experts and clients – both very important to the success of a project and of course the company!

After almost 8 long years, I felt that it was time to move on and broaden my horizons. Therefore, I decided to move onto something that excites me. Here’s to another long and stimulating journey.

Cheers!

Am I an Extrovert or an Introvert?

You Are An Intro-Extrovert!

Sometimes you're social - sometimes you're shyYou've got a bit of an Introvert / Extrovert split going onYou enjoy all sorts of situations. Parties, small groups, and alone time.Too much of one, and you'll long for the other. You need varity!Chances are, you've got both serious and fun friends - and they don't get along.

Are You An Extrovert or Introvert?

As is obvious from the above post, even the test itself can't decide! Good isn't it? I am a true mystery then! :)

New New New!!!

New job, new work, new place, new friends, oh what a life! Yes, I finally did get a life. There is something so fresh about change. I do wonder why I was avoiding it. I mean I am happy. Of course there are challenges and cribs, what would life be without them. But this is nice. Okay so let's review what I want:

I can't wait to get a place of my own.
I want to join a library or some good second hand books.
I want to save money for buying a house.
I want to do my job well --- maybe even get an excellence award or something.
Wait is does something like even exist here? -- if it doesn't then I wish that it did! LOL
I want to find out what to write in this intro about myself!
I want to write better than this! Ack!

Hmm now what? I guess I can get off this and get to work. :grin: At least work would be better then this pathetic attempt at writing. :)

Cheers!!!

Ecstatic

Ecstatic! That was what I felt today. After all I managed to complete some of my work early. Oh all right late but earlier than I thought it would take for me to do it. I even managed to start a new task...

But now sleep is catching up with me and I am trying my level best to keep the momentum. Hmm maybe I will complete a part and take a coffee break!

Coffee... ah bliss! Along with Netsearch it is the best thing provided by office. What I wouldn't give to be able to Netsearch all day long. Or maybe... read a really good story... out in the sun... with a foaming cup of coffee and some sesame toast. Yum! I'm feeling hungry already.

Ok so I know I'd better get back to work... yesterday was a disaster and I even caused one at home... by getting back late of course and having to hire a cab. For a moment I had believed that I would have to wait till really late to get a cab. Couldn't sleep properly for that matter.

Which brings me back to ... oops I forgot! No I didn't some part of the panic still remains... naaah just kidding. Remind me why I'm rambling on?

Well dears, I'm just writing my thoughts... in a perfect substitute for a diary. And it really hurts that no one read my last post. It was soo long since I wrote in it. Sob... no one likes me!

:Snicker: So there I said it! Time to go... ciao.

A Discourse With Self

Sigh!

Guilt, guilt, and more guilt! That's all there is to this ... this ... work.

Oh come on! boo hoo get it over with. Who are you kidding? Work has no interest for you any more. All you want to do is escape in the scenic routes of books, nature, television, or even day dreaming.

Work evokes guilt and panic.

Panic? Panic? Why panic? I mean you are adept in that. What causes panic? This certainly is surprizing.

I don't know. I mean I most probably do know but am in denial. Maybe panic is caused by the fact that people may find my work inadequate. Maybe they will find my work below par. Oh I know it has been rare earlier... but recently they have found inadequacies in my work. My confidence is wearing off. I do realize that all this is because I don't pay attention to it - but it still doesn't feel nice. It just brings on a whole wave of guilt.

Ok so I understand guilt. But I still don't understand why panic?

What if people realize that I'm a stupid broad who hasn't worked properly for a loooong time. And you do know how long. What will happen then? Will they fire me? Will they just shun me? Will I get any interesting projects? Oh I feel like crying.

Hmmm Interesting. That indeed is a cause for panic. But doesn't the fact that they do know that you haven't worked properly for so loooong and still give you their respect count for something? Dearie, they STILL respect you. You still offer valuable suggestions and compromizes. You are still willing to help others, without any concern for what you'll get in return. Doesn't that count for something? You bloody have gained a new project from the client just because you were being you! Gawd! I mean of course you have your downs. The company has supported you in that. Recognize it. But this doesn't mean that you don't have the right to feel panic or guilt. You have all the right to feel whatever you want to feel -- it makes you human.

But I want to be perfect. How will that happen if I don't work?

You are right -- if you don't work you won't be perfect. But even if you work you won't be perfect. You can never be perfect.

Sob...

Ack... hear me out completely first... No one can be perfect.

Sob...

Ok tell me... have you ever, and I mean EVER, found a person who is perfect? Anyone? Anyone at all?

Someone did seem like perfect to me.

And did you actually like that person?

Nope... I thought she was too stuck up.

So you want people to think you are stuck up?

Noooooo... of course not. I want them to like me.

But they already like you.

Yeah right!

Dear... they help you all the time. Take time to visit you even if you don't visit them. Call you. Bloody bring samosas for you just because they looked fresh! Sheesh... what else would you call it?

Oh... I mean oops!

It's all right.

I guess I should get back to work. I mean this is procrastination.

Lol... it is a good procrastination. There are bad procrastinations too...

And they would be?

I don't want to give you any ideas.

LOL...

love ya!

(Ok I know this is pretty narcissistic but I can't help but love it!)

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Should I post this?

Why not?

Everyone will read it.

So...

They will find out how I feel.

And your point is?

I don't want anyone to find out that I'm like this...

Like what?

Not perfect...

I thought we went through this already.

Eeps!

Sigh! Remember, you ARE perfect... you are the perfect you. No one can be any better at being you than you. Now I hope I have confused you enough to get back to work?

Nope.

Brat.

Pervert.

See how complicated it is to talk to oneself. Remember that you love yourself. Why else would you eat samosas even though you have a bad tummy.

This seems counter productive... but what the hell... yes. I do love myself. Happy now? I'm finally getting back to work.

Thank god!

My First Post

Yippeee!!!

Finally after mulling about it for like centuries, I have my own blog now. I am so excited! So what should I write in it? Hmmm... it should be something interesting that will attract readers.

Or not! I mean all I really want is a place to ramble on and on and hope that someone is listening. Yeah yeah I mean reading.

This brings me back to the same question... what should I write here today considering the fact that I already have written some confused thoughts. Maybe I can write what is bothering me today.

That DOES seem to be a good idea. Well today I am plagued by guilt that has been building over the past few months. The guilt that comes because of not giving my best to my work. Ohkay... make it the guilt that comes for slowly drifting towards the worst productive person at work.

Darn that was hard to say... er... I mean write. What should I do? I mean besides actually doing the work. Ha ha... very funny... or NOT. There is this gnawing feeling at the pit of my stomach. Everytime the phone rings I feel as if someone is going to shout at me. Maybe threaten to fire me or something. Yet everyone is soo nice and understanding. Yes I know my reputation and previous hard work is paying off, but I can't just sit on my laurels. My current projects are interesting and something I wanted to learn about.

So what happened you might ask me. Actually, I don't know. Maybe it was the lost promotion. The anger at others getting promoted or no challenges at work. Or maybe the lost vacation (this one is totally my fault actually). Whatever it is I need to move on.

Hey maybe I need a goal. Waaah! Disgusting... I can't think of one. Patience girl... patience. Grrr that is not one of my best virtues. Okay maybe I can concentrate on finalizing one document by 4 PM and reviewing one week of another.

Nooooo not another guilt pang. Boo hoo. This is not working. I feel that I wont succeed. Well at least I can finalize the one document. The rest can be the icing on a very soggy cake.

Hmmm... I'm going to try. Ciao.